I watched you today as you drifted out of my arms and into the world as a Kindergartner. I wanted to cry and hold you close and tell you one last time how much I love you and how much I will miss you; “the smaller you” but my heart is at peace because I know that you know.
Not a day went by no matter how hard it was (for me) that I didn’t tell you I loved you or that I missed you if you were out of my reach. I’m so proud of you – words can hardly express it.
It’s been a crazy ride, this journey into motherhood but OMG it is SO worth it. My heart has never been so full with love.
I was told when you were placed in my arms that the First Five Years would be the most important. It is during these years that the brain undergoes its most dramatic growth; unequalled to any other time of life.
That seems like a lot of pressure; I hope I did a good job?
I’m trying not to dwell on the fact that I am starting to lose my baby. In my mind, I’m pretending today is just another day, a new phase of life where we can learn things together.
Where most people advised me that you should start learning early – I believed you already were. Live and Learn – that’s my philosophy.
You are now going to “school” and will now have an enlarged sphere of influence. You will learn new things and may possibly become a leader of other men, a great scientist or a brilliant scholar ( I would be proud). But, first and foremost, what I want and hope you understand is that you MUST be a good human being.
They say that comes from a normal and happy childhood…. Your Dad and I; we did our best.
I guess as parents we can always look back at our younger selves and say that we could have done it differently, we could have done more – personally, I don’t think we could have.
I gave you my heart and my soul in every minute of everyday.
And, in the end what I have learned is that these first five years were just as important to me as they were to you.
You were my greatest teacher and I thank you for that.
I love you more than words could express.
Live and Learn. We all Do.
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